2015. That was the year that was. It was a year of surgeries, injuries, physical therapy for both me and my husband. It all started in late 2014 when John needed surgery for a torn roto-cuff followed by physical therapy. All went smoothly. In February John had a trigger finger problem. Again surgery and therapy came into play. By March my right hip arthritis became painful enough to get a joint replacement. Regarding aging, if it doesn’t hurt, it already fell off. John was an angel, waiting on me hand and foot when I got home. Pain meds comforted me and soon therapy got me recovered. Well enough to drive, we drove to Rochester in July to see our daughter and family. We arrived July 1st with our cat Lulu and began enjoying ourselves. Our son Jesse was planning even drove over from Binghamton with our grandsons Jonah 4 and Tucker almost 3.
The next day as John skipped down the stairs from our bedroom, he slipped on a lower step, and fell, his cries of pain rang out into the entry foyer. We learned he had a triple fracture in his right ankle and surgery was strongly urged before leaving town. It was so bad they put a metal plate and pins in his ankle. Now it was my turn to be his primary caregiver which I happily did. I wondered will these accidents, surgeries,and therapies ever end. We finally started home two weeks after we came. I drove 1000 miles over 4 days, taking care of John and Lulu. Soon John was in therapy once again. Our therapist, Jessica couldn’t believe what we’d been through. While in therapy for his ankle he woke up one day to a severe case of vertigo. He could hardly walk down the hall without putting his hands on the walls to steady himself. A few Epley maneuvers soon corrected the problem. Heard enough? Buckle up there’s more.
At the ocean one day in August with friend BeBe, a wave knocked me down and I got on all fours to get up with her helping. I was very overweight and lifting my body’s weight with my knees tore my right meniscus. Back in the O.R. we were becoming familiar faces at the hospital. More therapy. Jessica’s jaw dropped when I walked in for therapy. I jokingly said we want a memorial room with a plaque over the door with our names on it because of all the therapy we had. She laughed heartily. I made progress but knee didn’t really bend like before.
Now in late October I had an endoscopic test and learned I had a gastric ulcer and 3 erosions. My appetite was very poor and I made major dietary changes. Although the ulcer is now healed my appetite is still not great and some days tummy is very touchy. I went from 208 lbs in late summer to 162 in March 2016.
At Thanksgiving we went to Binghamton to be with our son. We went for turkey dinner with him, the grandsons, his ex and her daughters. It was terrible. My stomach was in knots because they could not stop sniping at each other for more than 10 minutes. I barely touched my food. We left the restaurant and were saying our goodbyes to the grandsons in the parking lot, I leaned over to kiss Tucker and kept going, falling forward. Jesse broke my fall somewhat but I still hit the asphalt with my right knee. Later my doctor drained 6 vials of joint fluid out of my swollen knee. We looked at my exray and there was not much cartilage so decided on a knee joint surgery which was on Jan. 28. More pain meds and therapy for me. The battle to feel “normal” was like me being Don Quixote battling windmills with wooden swords.
I was totally wearied by the cycle of injury, therapy and lots of staying home, drifting through seamless days that were indistinguishable from one another. Sick of our home looking like a medical supply store with commodes, canes and walkers, I lost my enthusiasm for writing, reading, etc. often vegging out in front of the TV. Although I got out a few times a week to be with friends, overall my life felt like one big Blah. My great joy was joining my faith sister Donna’s music ministry team at the Global Pray Center in Daytona Beach a few Fridays a month. I love music worship. It’s like a healing balm to my soul. I sang harmonies and played the djembe drum. I often sang in the spirit too. That’s when you sing out some thought or praise about God, and you allow the Spirit to take over and sing through you. Once back home I was back to the blahs, the lack of energy, and the lethargy that tormented me.
I was living with a mindset of sickness and pain. Largely because I allowed myself to do so. In late March I began constantly smelling the fragrance of oregano. I asked “Is a pizza following me around?” It was especially strong on the Saturday I went to a worship service at Baruch Hashem in Bunnell. “Did someone bring a pizza for the lunch that followed?” I wondered. I thought this may be a God message. Maybe God has put me through a time of bitterness (oregano is a bitter herb) for a season, for some greater purpose. I texted Donna asking what she thought it meant. No answer. During the opening prayer Dorothea prayed which included the petition “Oh cleanse us with your hyssop, O Lord” “Wash us and we will be whiter than snow”. Didn’t mean anything at the time. Back home I researched oregano on the internet. It comes from a Greek word which means Joy on the mountain. I thought, well after the bitterness ends there will be joy on the mountain. I emailed Donna to share these thoughts. She replied these interpretations were great. Then she told me oregano was a type of hyssop which in Biblical times was used for cleansing/purification. She said, “Tovah, God has been purifying you through all these trials you have endured”. Wow! that was powerful. Then I remembered Dorothea’s prayer and it all fit perfectly. God was telling me just that through her prayer.
I recently returned to the beach (my great love) and sat to write in my journal…the salty zephyrs planted welcome back kisses on my face. Decided would return there a few times a week. After the last Inspired Mic and listening to some motivational speakers including a chat with BeBe, decided to use the laws of attraction to shape who I am. To say everyday I am healthy, full of energy, full of creativity and productivity. I have been cleansed and purified with hyssop, reborn, never to return to that former self.
In early June 2015 I went to a fellowship group called Wave Riders in Ormond Beach.
We met in a former Bank of America building on Granada Boulevard. Inside it was kind of dark and cozy with klieg lights
and a stage area. The group was composed of some folks of mixed ages….a few bore tattoos and one lady was from Denmark, now living in Daytona Beach with her husband. Christian music played and those who knew the lyrics sang while others did some free form vocalizing, singing in the spirit.
The leader, a tall man with a ponytail led the group. Everyone knows him as Java John because he works as a barista at the Ocean Walk Starbucks. Many just call him Java for short. He was there with his wife P Bear….the sweetest couple you’d ever want to meet.
During the singing some ladies danced, others sat on their chairs silently worshipping. Soon we began discussing a variety of Biblical topics which I can’t remember at the moment.
We closed the meeting with a prayer circle. Java prayed about God scooping us up in His arms like a big loving daddy that He is. As he said this a vision formed in my mind. I saw myself being scooped up by my Heavenly Father and as He did this, I leaned in closer to Him trying to use my hands to draw myself closer and closer to him. No matter how wide I tried to extend my arms, I could not take all of Him in yet I kept reaching and stretching. I pressed myself into Him, harder and harder. Then suddenly, I broke “into” Him, entering His very being. He was all beautiful light like I’ve never seen. Like a feather riding on a warm zephyr, I floated in the beauty of the golden light. The image above is the closest I can come to regarding what I saw in that moment.
7/2/2015 7:30 a.m. BOOM! BANG! THUD! My husband stumbles off a lower stair and lands like a sack of potatoes. Cries for help and sounds of writhing pain break into the silence of the front door foyer at our daughter’s home. Hubby insists something is broken as our daughter counters it is probably a bad sprain. We immediately embark on a journey for medical attention and soon learn his ankle is fractured in 3 places. We are advised to see an orthopedic doctor immediately. We do and discover the injury requires surgery which happens a few days later.
Finicky husband with a fractured ankle….the test of servanthood commences. Wants and needs hit me like a rushing avalanche. Nerves crackling like a raging campfire. “I want this”, “get me that”, “I need…..” and so it goes. I need the patience of Job and a servant’s heart like the Little Sisters of the Poor. I pray to God:
“Lord help me to die to self for another’s sake. I think I am capable of this then realize how I failed so miserably. Bring me to a place of feeling joy at fulfilling each request. Would I not do the same for Yeshua?”
I sense Him telling me
“Consider John as Me and Me as John and walk in that knowledge. Serving resentfully is not of Me….so change your attitude now, lest you remain in my displeasure. If you ask, I will empower you, strengthen you so you will enjoy blessing your husband. Remember how he tirelessly took care of you just a few months ago after your hip surgery? Follow his example. Many are the times he was more like Me than you were.
I love you Tovah and desire only the best for you. You CAN pass this test of servanthood, but only to the extent of your dying to self and letting Me and My Spirit operate in and through you. I AM so with you in this. Let’s do it together.
To that I say, Amen and amen!
It’s the Monday after a 3-day holiday weekend (Veteran’s Day), 11/14/2005. Having moved here earlier in the month we needed new plates and licenses. We arrive at the Las Vegas DMV at 7:30 a.m. The parking lot is crowded and a long line has already formed outside the front doors. Although the official day starts at 8 a.m., at 7:45 the doors open like a gaping maw and we happily allow ourselves to be eaten up by the building.
We get into a snake-like line to show a clerk what we need and get a number. The line reminds me of being at a theme park. Maybe someday they will have some TV screens suspended from the ceiling showing driver safety films giving those in line something to watch. About 8-10 clerks line this counter. We finally get a lanky clerk with a pencil mustache and we cheerfully present our paperwork. He told us to get Nevada plates we first need a vehicle inspection and directs us to drive our car through a gate on the premises. He said when we get the approval paper to just come right back to him at the counter. Having done that, we learn that for our licenses we require more ID. We go back home and get proofs of identity for our licenses. When we get back a lady with cotton candy hair assigns us number A251…and that’s just the “A” group.
We find seats in a very large seating area. News web crawlers keep us up to date on such things as the birth of Conan O’Brien’s second child, a son Becket. There were so many people there, spending hours and hours. The place actually sold soda, franks, popcorn and pizza in case you got hungry. A long counter is before us with 26 clerks seated in front of DMV terminals. Electronic screens hung from the ceiling announced whose “number has come up”. A human sounding female voice announced the next number to be served. She speaks in a slow, calm, well-modulated tone that reminded me of the voice on the space ship in the movie “Alien” calmly instructing the crew that the ship will self-destruct in five minutes. How unnerving was that? The whole scene was reminiscent of a twilight zone episode….like all these people had crossed over into some holding cell to be processed before going to their “final destination”. For a moment I thought I saw Rod Serling, complete with skinny black tie and cigarette, milling about through the glaze-eyed throngs. I could almost hear his voice, “You’re lost in time and space, wondering how you got here and not quite sure how to get back to from whence you came. It’s a land where time seems to be standing still….you search for the exit in vain…lamenting with those trapped with you ……In the Twilight Zone”
An hour goes by and they are only up to A130. This is because there are other letter and number combinations like C294, K1369, etc. They represent different kinds of DMV needs, fleet vehicles, trucks, limos, etc. Tick tock, tick tock. After two hours, our number finally comes up and we get our Nevada plates and John’s license. The copy of my social security card was unacceptable so would have to return another day. The cost for plates and one license totaled $161. John gets his photo taken and in just a few magical minutes he is presented with a spanking-new Nevada license.
We are free to go and I abandon my fears that the DMV is like a kind of “Hotel California” where “you can check out anytime, but you can never leave”..
Mother Teresa, I must confess that for many, many years I confessed you as the woman in all of history I would most like to emulate; a woman of total selflessness and constant giving. I now, with much sadness, confess that you no longer hold that status. Why you ask?? Over the last decade many reports surfaced that you did little or nothing for the sick and suffering who fled to one of your homes for relief of their diseases, pain and suffering, even though you received multiple millions of dollars for that purpose.
At first I rejected these claims…just could not wrap my head around that. It was especially easy to reject the claims of the late Christopher Hitchens, a renowned writer and atheist. However, many others corroborated what he wrote, especially volunteers working at your “death houses” who may not have been Catholics or of any particular faith. Here are some of their reports:
It was noticed that staff members reused needles, only rinsing them off with cold tap water. They were reused over and over until the tips became blunt causing pain to the patients. Often medicines expired, languishing on their shelves, unused. You believed pain and suffering brought one closer to Jesus and you did not want to deprive your patients of that experience. Were you serious? Yet you flew off to the best hospitals money could pay for your personal afflictions. Why did you do that? Why did you not embrace pain and suffering if you held it in such high regard? Why didn’t you want to get closer to Jesus through your suffering? Did you ask your patients what they wanted? No….you just arbitrarily decided for them.
When I learned this I decided even if you did one thing to help someone, it was negated by all those you failed to help, failed to relieve them of sufferings. There are no words to describe how disgusted I was and still am. And now you are up for a vote to become a saint? The qualifying so-called miracle has allegedly been discounted, but why let facts get in the way of elevating you to an ever higher status? The myths surrounding you have taken on a life of their own. Funny thing is the bible, in the new testament, it calls all believers saints. Did you hear me? WE ARE ALL SAINTS!!
At the time of your death, you had opened 517 missions welcoming the poor and sick in more than 100 countries. But these missions have been described as ‘homes for the dying’ by doctors visiting several of these establishments in Calcutta. Doctors observed a significant lack of hygiene, even unfit conditions, as well as a shortage of actual care, inadequate food, and no painkillers. There was, however, no lack of money, as the foundation created by you had raised hundred of millions of dollars. Following numerous natural disasters in India you offered prayers and medallions of the Virgin Mary but no direct assistance nor monetary aid. Wow….that’s just great.
You accepted the Legion of Honour and a grant from the Duvalier dictatorship in Haiti, said a prof Larivee, and although millions of dollars were transferred to your various bank accounts, most of the accounts were kept secret. Dr Larivie says: ‘Given the parsimonious management of Mother Teresa’s works, one may ask where the millions of dollars for the poorest of the poor have gone?’ Indeed….we’re all still asking that question. Once a child in your home stole something and one of your nuns took a heated knife blade and pressed it on the topside of his hand, scarring him. Is this how you and your minions show the love of God to a child?
I read somewhere that as you approached death, you were not really sure you would go to heaven. Wasn’t that a total denial of your faith in Jesus and the gospel, where it says heaven is our final reward? Did you ever believe in the gospel? I’m still shaking my head over that one.
The only good thing your myth did is that it is likely you inspired many humanitarian workers whose actions have truly relieved the suffering of the destitute and addressed the causes of poverty and isolation, without being extolled by the media. I think those receiving that help will be much, much closer to Jesus than you could ever hope to be. They toil tirelessly in your shadow, never receiving one iota of the accolades you did, but then just who do they think they are “Mother Teresa”?
A TALE FROM DYSTOPIA (a community or society that is in some important way undesirable or frightening. It is literally translated as “not-good place”, an antonym of utopia)
Pitchers of warm sunlight poured down from the heavens into this mid-July day 2022 in North Dakota. The winter had dragged on forever but finally left this bleak backwater outside Minot. Svetlana Roshenko placed her hand over her brow to cut the glare and peered at the barren yard through the window bars in her prison cell. Prisoners in bright orange jumpsuits milled about, chatting, kicking the dirt around here and there. Two large blonde women with cigarettes dangling from their lips, got into each others’ face over something. A puny-framed guard stepped in between them. His head reached the level of their ample bosoms and looked like it might get wedged in the chasms of their collective cleavage. For a moment Svetlana imagined him doing a little “motorboatin’ “ in there and chuckled. Despite his size, the women respected his authority as he ordered each to opposite sides of the yard. Just another day in Paradise you could say.
“Psst……Hey Svetsie! Got a smoke?” Svetlana pressed her face into the bars and peered out at each side. “Yasmeen is that you?” Svetlana asked. Yasmeen popped into Svetlana’s field of vision. A petite, mocha-skinned young woman of 23, she had long, dark wavy hair that framed her soft, angelic face. Svetlana reminded her “You know I don’t smoke, and neither should you….you know your faith frowns on it”. “May allah help me….I want to stop but the stress here makes it so hard” Yasmeen explained. Yasmeen was one of three children to her Iranian parents, both physicians. They emigrated to America in 1999 because there was less pressure here to “hate your enemies”. Yasmeen and Svetlana came to Paradise prison in 2021. Both were convicted of breaking the law that forbids speaking about God to others. It declared there is NO God and sharing such beliefs caused many to feel negative emotions, e.g. fear, remorse, worry, stress, guilt, etc. Yasmeen was picked up on a Chicago street corner for sharing her faith with some bystanders. Other prisoners had criticized leaders, grew their own food, and used alternative medicine. You know, society’s undesirables. . Svetlana was born in 1993 in Florida where her devout Christian family settled after immigrating from the former soviet union. Svetlana turned from the window and reached under her cot mattress for a very small pocket Bible smuggled into the prison. The inmates change their own linens so she felt safe keeping it there. After reading the prophecy about those jailed for their faith she remembered the day of her trial.
Judge O’Leary had a pudgy face with jowls that swayed when he moved his head. Peering over the top of his eyeglasses he asked, “Miss Roshenko, knowing the law forbids speaking of God to others, why oh why would you do such a thing? You threw the next 4 years of your life away to talk about your precious Jesus! Was it worth it?” Svetlana fingered her long blonde hair for a minute before she answered. She recalled the day of her arrest that day at Flagler Beach. Perched on a picnic table bench overlooking the ocean, she saw a slender middle-aged woman who was crying. Svetlana tried to comfort her and gently shared her faith. Svetlana’s words were like a healing balm to Sad Lady and she thanked Svetlana for her message. A local informer went unnoticed as they chatted on. He was a lanky stretch of seersucker suit topped with a straw fedora and shades. He flipped open a phone, turned aside and called the police. Soon an officer quietly slithered up. He was all business as he stepped forward and asked her name which she told him. He announced, “Svetlana Roshenko you are under arrest in violation of the anti-God laws of this land”. Miranda rights, long extinct, he then cuffed and carted her off. As they moved towards the patrol car, she yelled back to her new found friend: “Don’t forget the things I told you…..Don’t be afraid of these goons…they can never steal your soul unless you let them. The officer snarled: “Shut up you raving lunatic!” as he roughly shoved her into the back seat.
“Miss Roshenko!” the judge cried out, his jowls quivering orgasmically, as her daydream shattered, “I asked you a question….Is Jesus worth all this trouble?” “Yes” she replied. “He is my Lord and Master. You will come to understand this one day Your Honor”. The judge’s face turned plum purple. The veins on his neck and forehead strained at the skin covering them, greatly alarming the bailiff. “Miss Roshenko, you dare to preach to ME??” “Yes your Honor” she said; “to you, and everyone”. Then she sealed her fate. Svetlana rose from her chair, her blue eyes like fiery ice, and boldly gave a gospel message to everyone in that courtroom, “ENOUGH OF HER! TAKE HER AWAY” the judge screamed, mopping perspiration from his face with a damp handkerchief. Many spectators in the gallery tried to suppress ripening tears that formed at the corners of their eyes, worried someone might see them. Svetlana beheld their stoic faces and knew they hoped the tears would quickly evaporate. They feared being sympathetic to criminals like her might actually draw suspicion and trouble to themselves. They were so right.
Back to 2022 now. In the mess hall that evening she sidled up to Yasmeen. “’Sup ? she asked. Staring into her unappetizing plate of food Yasmeen said “Svetsie, I just can’t take it here any more. I am almost ready to tell the authorities that I have renounced allah so I can get out of here.” Svetlana was stunned. “Really? Well you know they will give you a lie detector test to insure you have abandoned your long-cherished beliefs. Do you think you can trick the machine?” “Unsure Svetsie, but I have to try.” Many times Svetlana shared her faith with Yasmeen but she was as unmovable as the Rock of Gibraltar. Yasmeen could never embrace what she considered pagan Christianity with its trinitarian doctrine, and other tenets that offended Islam. Svetlana cared very much for Yasmeen and respected the depth of her convictions. After all, she had some pretty deep convictions of her own. They had a mutual admiration for each other and were close friends. Many times they stood side by side in the prison yard praying for each other in the name of their respective “Gods”. A few weeks later Svetlana found Yasmeen in the prison yard sitting in a corner, head in hands, crying. Yasmeen, what’s wrong”. “Oh Svetsie, I failed the lie detector test and they put me in solitary for several days for lying. Now I will never get out of here unless I make a break for it.” “Oh no Yasmeen, please don’t try that. There are tales that those who try to break out are caught and beaten. Can you imagine it? Just for believing in God? They think of us as some kind of cancer out to infect society…..and society must be protected from us at all costs, even the cost of our well-being.” “I’ve heard that too Svetsie, but I’d rather be beaten than live like this another day. You won’t tell on me will you?” “Of course not, but I will pray you change your mind.” Svetlana paused and wondered if she too might reach a breaking point someday. She was certain she would never renounce her faith but attempting a prison break, that was something else. She decided to not worry about it for now as she had her work cut out for her. She was sharing her faith with the other women prisoners in the mess hall, prison yard, prison library and many were coming to faith. There were still hundreds in the prison who were unreached or unwilling to embrace Jesus at this point. She prayed for these people daily and tried to be a blessing to them however she could. The grand plan was to win all to Jesus, including the guards and the warden. For now, however, it was still a dream. Her dreams and God’s dreams were one and the same and this truth brought her great comfort. She knew this nightmare would end, and was hoping it would be very soon
After waiting months the day finally arrived, Sept. 29 2014. Linda K picked us up with our luggage to go the Amtrak station in Jacksonville. We left at 3 pm to get a 5 pm train and begin our journey to California. The rains started again and as we drove along Linda was talking quite a bit gesturing a lot with her right hand. This was very unnerving as occasionally we did some lane drift. Not only did I feel my own tension building but could clearly feel my husband’s as well. A pickup truck passed. The driver rolled down his window, stuck his arm out and made a yapping gesture with hand. “Well what is that supposed to mean”, Linda asked. He is signaling “Stop talking so much and drive”, I replied.
We were supposed to leave at 5 p.m. but because of track flooding in Palatka, the train was delayed and finally dragged its behind into the station at 8 pm. We immediately went to the dining car. After dinner we went to our beds. Our hearts were gladdened to see Larry, a room attendant we had on our last train trip. I tried to listen to my FM Walkman radio (yes, the 80’s called and wanted it back but I said no) Found some lovely Mozart music but then lost the signal.
The woo-wooing of the train whistle cooed to us day and night. Resting in our berths it was a comforting lullaby singing to us as we curled up fetus-like, deep in the steel-encased womb that rocked and swayed us into a fitful dreamland.
Riding through West Virginia I wondered why no one announced something about going through Harper’s Ferry, site of John Brown’s raid on a munitions warehouse during the Civil War. Somewhere in Nebraska we passed a sign announcing Ward Bond Memorial Park. He once starred in the tv show Wagon Train. There were no attendance numbers posted.
INTERESTING PEOPLE WE MET:
Roxanna was an artist from L.A. Late 20’s or early 30’s. She was medium height, slender with olive skin, dark hair (always covered by a scarf) and huge brown almond eyes…reminded me of actress Rosaria Dawson. Her german shepherd dog, Fat Sprinkles, followed her everywhere she went. She told us she did a major art project for the Cosmetology School at the University of Jacksonville.
Darren B. was a 31-year-old guy going back to LA. He was a mystery shopper. His sneakers were stolen from his luggage in a storage room and he wore flip-flops. He bought some new sneakers in DC union station as we waited for our connection. While in the Acela lounge, I looked up and saw him lift up his tee shirt to slather on some fresh deodorant. Really Darren?
Looking out the windows the ever-changing landscape created some poetic impressions like these:
In Winter-Park, Fraser a soccer field is dotted with kids playing, their jackets of red, yellow and blue screaming for attention and shouting away the cheerless grey skies.
Looking for wildlife in between the raindrops that smattered our windows, they played the spoiler.
Penetrating the Ohio landscape, we beheld fields of wind turbines. Their blade-like arms turned slowly, slicing the air, waving to us and each other in perfect harmony, with red signal lights winking and blinking at us in flawless synchrony.
Pristine waters, glass-like flowed the Colorado, its sheen broken only by subsurface creatures forming long graceful ripples.
On the plains: Ghosts of cattle past haunt the empty trackside holding pens. I see the misty-lined shadows of those docile ones moving slowly down pathways leading to freight cars, that took them to an unbeknownst slaughter.
The mountains were draped in soft folds of mocha-tinted earth, ushering us towards Winnemucca, NV.
Blackbirds perched two by two atop snow fence posts conversed softly, their black feathers starkly contrasting wheat-colored grasses.
The placid beauty of Donner Lake, California belied its grisly history when a party got stranded in the winter of 1846-47. 48 out of the 87 people in the Donner party survived; those who died were eaten by the others. You could say it wasn’t so much a party as it was a picnic.
Petite wind-blown autumn leaves playfully chased each other along a Sierra Madre trail.
Stoic-faced Amish folks crunched crackers in the observation cars as a younger man smiled at us and melted the frosty air that enveloped them.
Young lady walked along the tracks, her black fur, white-tipped dog sprinted to catch up to her, cued by her over-the-shoulder glance
Dirty-water above ground pool languishes in a trackside backyard in whistle-stop Dawson, PA….suffering from benign neglect, pleading to be put out of its misery.
Sandy-toned prairie dogs in Colorado stood at attention, silent sentinels, saluting us as we breezed past them.
Majestic snow-capped Rocky mountains greeted us as we raced through tunnels that pierced through their cores.
Craggy faces of rock jutted out of the stoney slopes, scarred by streaks of copper and ivory.
Atop the mountain peaks, soupy thick fog hugs the peaks in a cool embrace.
Utah flatlands glistened in the sun for miles and miles, blanketed by a shrould of the greyish-white Bonneville salts.
Riding through Clarendon Hills an old style movie theater sits nestled between shops on a main street…a pleasant nostalgic moment from a simpler time.
Tiny clouds hinted their presence into the blue canopy overhead.
Fast approaching San Francisco, we looked out at the moonlit landscape. The waning half man in the moon winked at us, strobe-like, through the towering pines of Eastern California. I suggested we cuddle up and get jiggety. We both laughed at the thought.
At 10 pm I went to the observation car. I found a beer-drenched jam session of musicians playing folk and country songs. Leroy (snow on the roof, fire in the belly guy) played a guitar that looked like a balalaika, Cool hand Luke on Uke, and the Harmonica Twins played as Diva Girl (twenty something) sang (I use the term loosely). Music simmered from Luke on Uke and Snow with Harmonica Twins offering up some sweet side dishes. Often Snow threw his head back and crooned, coyote-like, howling at the moon. I also met Kadi F (Kadi Kat). Snow on the roof asked me to sing something. I broke out with “If you’re going to San Francisco”. The guys liked my singing so they said. Kadi Kat really had a great voice. Oh no..our voices drew Diva Girl closer and she joined in, singing over us off key destroying the song. I didn’t make a big deal out of it. Diva wore a turquoise low scoop neck top and I thought the girls would flop out at any moment. The table tops were strewn with sheet music and lyrics. We sang Act Naturally, Blowin’ in the Wind , Don’t Think Twice, etc. stopping when we forgot the rest of the words. One of the Harmonica Twins flipped when I tried to sing Subterranean Homesick Blues. Wow! You remember those lyrics?
Finally we arrived in Emeryville station outside San Francisco. Our daughter Sara was there to pick us up. I thought well there will be a whole new bunch of experiences when we head home again.
All I can say is, if you want to talk about life being like a box of chocolates, try taking a long train trip to get a real sampling of some interesting people and places.
I am resting in an Adirondack chair in my yard reading my bible. Our cat Lulu joins me. A huge blue heron flies overhead, its wings casting a broad shadow over us. It flies into the trees outside our fence. I look down to my left as I catch a glimpse of Lulu’s head. I think she came to sit near me for protection as she also saw this awesome bird.
I stop reading and just relax for awhile in my chair. I look up and notice our scraggly rose bush has a branch with a large rose bloom that leans straight out towards me like it is trying to reach/touch me. I think of Yeshua (Jesus), the Rose of Sharon (rhymes with tone). Its luscious red color kisses my eyes. A light breeze lifts it up and down (but not the other roses), like it is waving to me, affirming that it is, in fact, Yeshua Himself – speaking to me.
“Hello My beloved….Yes I AM the Rose of Sharon, Yeshua, the one who loves you like a husband – your true husband. Keep your eyes fixed upon my beauty and my beautiful love for you, Tovah. Soon we will be together in My Kingdom, never to be separated again. Continue being faithful to Me to the very end. Take no other lovers..embrace not any false teaching. Ask My Holy Spirit for discernment and it will be given to you. Keep sharing the true gospel with others. Many do not like it when you speak of repentance, acceptance of My atoning sacrifice and obedience to my commandments. Take heart in that it pleases Me greatly that you continue to do so. I already told you that the servant (you) would not be any better treated than the Master(Me) so this should not surprise you. I know it is discouraging but you are in good company as the prophets before you were disparaged, stoned and killed. They now hold places of great honor in My kingdom. When discouragements come, sit before Me and lay your cares at My feet. I love you forever!”
In late June we learned Hurricane Arthur was moving its way up the Florida coast. Bored, nothing to do, me and my husband ventured out on July 2nd to witness its effects as it began breezing past Flagler County. My senses soon became bombarded with images causing
my brain to churn out a bit of free verse poetry. I found an envelope in my tote and quickly began jotting down these “Impressions of Arthur”.
Cruising southward in our car, I look out at the brewing tempest.
Atlantic waves tipped their caps of white at the sun
I squinted at the golden sheen on the waves before they crested and crashed.
The sirens of the deep sang loudly, churning the waters above.
A canopy of inky grey skies hovered over the angry waters.
A smattering of ocean bathers risk safety to romp in the briny froth maybe just so they could say they did.
A senior couple on a beachside bench looked out, marvelling in silence.
Seaside sago palms waved to each other, and chatted “Here we go again”.
Ghost-town like roads and parking spaces beckoned to the cars to come and fill them.
The lifeguard rested on her perch, a silent sentinel looking out at the growing fury.
Was she staring at it in fascination or wondering if her boyfriend is cheating on her
The ghost crabs hunkered down in their sandy caves in case things got dicey
Western blue skies and white clouds rendezvoused with eastern grey skies and clouds
kissing each other over Flagler Beach.
Driving home the blue skies surrended their place to those of charcoal grey.
Drizzle splattered our windshield and soon turned to rain announcing Arthur’s arrival.
Pelicans gracefully drifted by, unruffled by Arthur’s presence as seagulls screeched their welcomes.
Gather round ‘ye far and near, The words of Tovah you must now hear
A tale to chill you, it’s truly a keeper…It’s the tale of Abe Shorey, the Collegetown Creeper
It started in Ithaca 2003 and 4, Something like this never happened before.
Many held their breaths as each night passed, Would they hear a new report in the next newscast?
Abe was 23, married, father of six…Did he miss that single life of parties, drinks and chicks?
At Cornell University a few classes he took, ..it was not a good fit, so academia he forsook.
He cooked at The Nines to support his wife and kids…Little did he know his life would soon go on the skids.
After work he roamed C-town, spring was in the air… Not much on his mind not even a care
In the dead of night the streets he’d stroll…Looking for something to refresh his soul.
Then he passed an open window, saw a girl sleeping in her bed….A wild crazy impulse began brewing in his head.
He stopped at more houses, each time he lingered longer..the impulse to get closer, became stronger and stronger
After whetting his appetite with some open window peeping, He stood on the brink of going even deeper
An open window, an unlocked door…Made it oh so easy as his feet touched the floor
In each bed was a coed, such a lovely sleeper…enthralled just to watch her was the Collegetown Creeper
In her bed asleep and all tucked in, he put some baby oil on her smooth skin
She awoke started screaming…was this the Grim Reaper? Oh no my sweet one, it’s just the Collegetown Creeper.
He ran, his heart racing, he felt kind of high…But the rush only inspired yet another try
His actions grew bolder, he had less and less fear…Even snipping off some panties as his own souvenir.
Abe Shorey, Abe shorey whatever went wrong? You became a wanted man, over one tiny thong.
You finally got arrested and later jumped bail. No way he said….I ain’t going to jail!
Like an eel he slipped through police stops, his victims felt taunted
Abe even made the big time on America’s Most Wanted.
They’ll never catch me, Abe did boast
and off he headed to the West Coast
He could have stayed hidden if he kept his profile low
but soon in San Diego his cover he did blow.
One night in a ski mask that covered his head
He ever so slowly crept into her bed
He covered her mouth to stifle her scream
But she bit him, he bled, thus ending his scheme.
They tested his blood for DNA and he was outed
Finally caught and arrested he screamed, and kicked and shouted.
In 2005 he was given 7 years, and in 2012 he re-emerged
Did he master his tormenting demons, or were they merely submerged?
Here the trail runs cold, I know not the whereabouts of Abe.
Is he back with his family, or alone in a cave?
Could he be in your town, sinking in ever deeper?
Lock your windows and your doors, keep yourself safe, safe from the Collegetown Creeper.